Hello All.
The words that come to mind to describe my feelings when I see the date June 8, 2007 as my last post are: dismayed, overwhelmed, and apologetic. I don't feel guilty because I know none of you would want me to feel guilty, so as a favor to you I have saved myself the grief.
The words that come to mind to describe the girls, as I have come to know them in that past year since my last post are: riotous, keenly intelligent, frentic, profound and miraculous. Oh, and of course, cute too.
I obviously can't really begin to cover too much ground regarding the events of the past year. Very, very soon I will put up a bunch of photos and I'll make the captions on the long side. In short, the girls are happy, healthy, growing and plotting their takeover, I'm sure. There are definitely times when I feel I am playing right into their clutches. I am no match for them. I think I like it that way.
In September the girls will begin preschool - yes, preschool, already! It will only be twice a week for two and a half hours and it's a co-op so I'll be there sometimes too. It is a big deal, but I am very sure that the girls will love it. It's called Hancock Street Co-operative Preschool, and it has a website if anyone is interested in investigating it. The teacher is wonderful - she says things to me like, "you set such a good example for your girls when you say what's on your mind." I think it's a good thing that she makes me feel like a kid again myself; I mean, when was the last time a teacher gave you some praise? It's kind of intoxicating...or maybe that's just me...I always was eager to please in school.
I am getting rather excited about the co-op aspect. Initially, it was a financial decision, but as someone who has shunned a lot of parenting type functions, I am excited about learning better ways of dealing with conflict, discipline, etc. When I think about how much time I have spent being this "mom" person, without having even a teensy bit of previous experience I feel like a sham. The girls will no doubt realize this when they have teachers and other parents to answer to, so I guess this co-op arrangement will allow me to jump aboard the bandwagon too. Seriously, though, there really are times when one girl takes something from another and I hear the "MOMMMMMY!" and inside I have to psyche myself up because I am never really sure if I should make them share whatever it is, or if I should tell the girl who wants it to find something else until her sister is done with it or if I should lock it in the closet because the girls couldn't work it out amongst themselves. I am completely inconsistent. See, I mean it! I am sham! But wait, come September, I get to learn all about HS Preschool's conflict resolution guidelines and then I'll be a perfect parent! Ha, ha!
I am going to cut this short in favor of working on the photo uploading portion, but now that I have taken some action, I will try to be more loyal to the blog.
Much love to all,
Sarah
